洋葱 ( OnioN)

【洋葱】给人第一感觉就是辣和呛鼻。洋葱外表看似来很坚强，如果你用心剥开一层一层，就会发现里面不同的秘密。即使洋葱的味道多么的辣，可是一旦剥开，也是变成薄薄一片的洋葱圈。 洋葱可以让一个人流泪不止，也许是因为那个人心里充满了无数的伤痕。一旦心里的伤遇上了洋葱的辣，就会痛的无法形容。但是有些人对洋葱的辣，无动于衷，不流泪。是不是他们已经绝望了？变成无情无义，没感觉。一粒【洋葱】代表一个人的心里，那一层一层的【洋葱圈】就是代表【秘密】。想要去了解一个人，就先要学会用心去剥开那辣得不行的洋葱圈，发掘内在的秘密。看像是一个简单的任务，但有谁能真正的做到呢？

LoVe Vs DrEam ----------8.17pm - 12/11/2010

很多女人将爱情视为生命中的另一半，而我的另一半，是我的梦想。
有人问我，没有爱情不会寂寞吗？
也许吧! 没有爱情是寂寞了一点。
可是有时候，当人有了爱情，却反而更孤单寂寞了。
所以，对我来说，爱情可遇不可求，我乐见【它】在，也不在乎【它】不在。
而【梦想】就不一样，梦想可追可求，只要自己肯努力向前冲，就算前方有多凹凸不平的阻碍，也不怕它逃掉。
追着【它】，注视【它】，【它】就不会消失。追逐的人或许会感觉辛苦和疲惫，但是心里至少不会寂寞，因为爱着另一半的感觉，真美妙。

Tear 【眼泪】

哭真的能决解问题吗？哭过后，累了，睡一觉，真的是一切变回原点吗？
答案：【自己骗自己】。
我也不懂从什么时候开始，我用了哭的方法去消除压力与烦恼。也许一个人的时候，脑袋浮现很多很多的事情，逼得我快喘不过气了，再加上一些悲伤音乐的伴凑，很奇怪的眼泪就会控制不住的流下了。
一滴的眼泪代表【悲伤】，
一滴的眼泪代表【寂寞】，
一滴的眼泪代表【无助】，
一滴的眼泪代表【无奈】，
一滴的眼泪代表【失望】，
一滴的眼泪代表【没理由】，
原来我一直都在骗自己，以为自己很坚强，其实我只不过如此而已，心里是最脆弱的。外表掩饰得多坚强，当你撇开里面，原来心早已碎得无能再铺修了。有时候，空虚搞得我快神志不清了，那个才是真正的我？有谁真的懂自己呢？

New Formula

When you alone face the problem, may be you will feel panic and confusing. What way should go, like stay at T-junction go straight, turn left, turn right or turn the U turn. Human life like sit the roller coaster, up and down full of adventure and challenge. The process is fell sadness, happiness, worries, disappointed and hopeless. I am that person like alone, heart empty spaces. I also don’t know want to fill what thing inside my heart. Isn’t money, family, career, love etc? In my theory of life, I know that one formula, that is when nothing go through, than try turn the corner may be another hope at there side. Don’t always keeping stay in origin, try making the change, may be you will realize other good thing. Take a chance, make a change. So, I will try qiong qiong qiong, fight fight to achieve my dream. My dream, I am now coming forward to you.

ButterflY 【蝴蝶】

【蝴蝶】在每个人的心中都是娇艳，美丽和温和的。小小一只的蝴蝶，但它带来的魅力是无穷的。但是有没人想过，蝴蝶的美丽是短暂。蝴蝶虽然美丽，可是它的美只限于一天而已。灿烂但是短暂。爱情也一样像蝴蝶吗？甜蜜只是在短短的时间，久了就会开始腻，厌倦了就分开了，那有何苦呢？但是有人说蝴蝶也是经历一段艰苦的路程，破蛹而出，学会飞，才能展现那娇艳与魅力。爱情也应该如此，经历一段苦练，才能磨出至死不渝的爱。那可是不简单的任务咯！我可能得不到这样爱，但我会祝福天下的情人，你们的爱像蝴蝶一样【娇艳】，【美丽】，飞得更高更远，珍惜彼此。【因为有人爱你是一件幸福的事】。Endless Love （^v^）

Awakening....【醒觉】

这几天，觉得自己怪怪的。我到底怎么了？也许心太空虚，找不到自己到底要的是什么东西。我的心里想的不是全部都是钱吗？我还在烦什么？难道我要像别的女生一样，去追求是爱情吗？ 想被人保护吗？想有人去爱吗？我是这样的吗？我不懂不懂！！我真的累了，真的很累。很想找一个地方休息。可是，我又怕一旦休息，我会追不上别人的脚步。我不要每次在别人的后面， 我不喜欢看别人的背面。我要站比他们更高的，我要看的世界比他们更多的，更辽宽的。我喜欢 高高在上的感觉。我是时候，清醒了。勇敢去付出吧!!! 去寻找我想要的东西。

Sharing........

分享是温馨的一个形容词，就如分享快乐，分享痛苦。但是对我来说分享什么都不是。因为我不知道要与谁分享？工作上的压力和疲惫，我该向谁分享。原来是没有人。为什么我那么可悲呀！！也许是自己问题。因为我每一次都会告诉自己，不可以付出100%的心，至少保留20%给自己。这样才不会被伤到很深，20%是为了保护自己。每当我想找个人分享，打开手机的contact list，原来找不到一个人去分享。那时候才发觉，我是孤独的。我只想要一个而已，告诉我有那么难吗？当我遇到了瓶颈，想找个人说说话，有个肩膀让你靠一靠。当我哭了，有人会准备纸巾让我擦一擦。当我达到成功的那时刻，有人会站起来为你鼓掌。我真的很想拥有那样的知己。我有及格去拥有他们吗？可以吗？

黑(black) + 白(white) = 灰(grey)

很多人都很喜爱看到彩虹，因为代表了雨后天晴。说明了一切不好的事情过了，美好的时刻的来临。彩虹虽美丽，但只是短暂。那灰色颜色呢？它是不属于在彩虹的世界，而是处在黑与白的之间。灰色即特别又特出。但是在灰色的空间里充满寂寞，孤单，绝望和无助。在那里的事情都是负面的。我是属于那一国的吗？

在灰色的空间，
我可以隐蔽自己，因为我不够自信。
我可以躲在角落数着无数的寂寞，因为心结解不开。
我爱坐在电脑的前面，因为唯有“它”了解我。
我爱望着无边无际的天空，因为可以感觉到自由。
我不爱和别人说话，因为我怕秘密被发现。

人最可怕的是搞不懂自己的方向，一旦踏进了灰色地带，混淆了黑与白。傻傻的分不清楚到底该选择了那个方向？

BeCausE U LoVe mE

Song: Because You Love Me

Sing By: Celine Dion

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through
through it all
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I a Because you loved me
You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the
sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by
you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't
speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into
my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of
you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't
speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't
speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
Because you loved me
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

坚持。。到底。。。

我在心里反复的问自己，是不是坚持了一件事情就一定能会成功？答案是：“未必”。我觉得自己真的很无能，为何别人那么出色而自己为什么不能达到那样的程度。我每一次都说十个人里，一定会一个成功的。这是因为这十个人里面的那一位付出了比他人多。我真的很怕很怕，自己不如他人。我很怕输的感觉。在学习的过程中，要求进步更进步。就如你用了一个办法到了一个车站，再去下一个车站的过程，必需把自己磨练得更强，才能与他人相争。未来的路凹凸不平，有多少的波折没人知，但有一点我很确定的是我会一个人的闯到终点。

Working Time.... 1 mnt ago....Hopeless

When start the career, anything must learn..learn... learn this learn that..haz..sean. When face the problem, the boss will ask u think the solution, solution. How i find this solution for you my dear boss. i already reach my limit, no more idea for you. all knowledge of my mind me already go through from them. lastly, me also cant find the solution for you. Please don't abuse me. Me just only human no the superman, spider man. i know u r my boss, i shld fulfil yr requirement, but u knw at sumtime, me reali so stress to face with you. me just a intership student.me just the beginner , no expert or intermediate. cn u leave a little bit space for me to breath. u nw totaly press me til breathless. Me also 1na upgrade myself full of knowledge, b myself more strong thn b4. bt cn u giv me sumtime to make a change. me no like other person, talent and clever.me is a stupid and noob human. Me need take sum time to add the new knowledge. Lastly, work full of stress, tired and responsibility..i just hope this half of year, anything wil run smoothly.. reali thx god to bless me.

Work = war

Finish the study period. Start another journey (work). Feel excited, stress and tired? Work no easy that I expect it. When starting the work period, it will start and till forever. No more rest station for you, no more fun, no more joke. Work like the war, full challenge, adventure and responsibility. As the worker, you need provide the job with efficiency to your boss. No more people will guide you. All must start zero by yourself. How many responsible you can contribute to the company, how many strengthen inside yr mind, how strong you can settle the problem. All depend on your ability to control all the problem. From now, I start afraid about the work. I scare I cannot achieve the target of my boss. Now, I just thinking how I improve and upgrade myself be more strong and knowledge. How can I improve myself same level with other person. When I just can be like them, so expert in handle the hard job. All this must start with the learning. In study period, has the idiom represent study hard, study smart than when in work , the study idiom change be work hard work smart .Anything must start with learn and after that is more practice. So, learn and practice must process together. Than anything will run smoothly and perfect. I saw 1 video from the facebook, the video content is talking about the even little bit mistake; it will be the sweet memory in your life. From the video, I like 1 sentence that "A little bit imperfection, that make them perfect for you. That means, don't always care the little mistake or wrong in your life, may be this mistake will bring along the memory for you. Treasure anything that beside you and accept the small lack from them. Make your life be wonderful and be happy life.

Study end with full stop. Start makes the new sentences with the words work and career.

Finally finish the study 3 years in U. what I am getting from these 3 years. I think nothing from there. I just remember when me 1st time enter the college, open the room door, told to myself that me really can stay 3 years at here? I really can’t imagine the 3 years life at here. At last, me success take the challenge in this 3 years. Now is the time to close up the door and say good bye. All sweet memory, sadness, the sound of laugh all inside the room will always kept in heart. I can’t forget the thing is our friendship can’t maintain till the end of semester. Say truly, me felt disappointed about her.Till now me still remember that day how she treat us with the bad attitude, talking and the expression of eye. That time really hurt so deep. May be both of us appear problem before this, just we no settle it. When the problem becomes more and more. That no has solution to settle it. So, will appear broke friendship. Even now we will be friend again, but also can’t like before. This is because each of our heart already has the crack inside it. When start enters the career, I will feel stress. This is because it no same like at U. No has people will help you, no people will guide you. Everything problem settle by yourself. Society is full of challenge, adventure and realistic, everybody is selfish, no has good person. So, when enter inside the society, 1st things must learn is wear the mask to treat people, don’t treat people with true heart, this is because if you use true heart you will hurt by them. 2nd thing is don’t easy belief other person, this is because they will betray you. 3rd thing is making yourself be strong and strong, and then will not have people bully you. When has problem, don’t escape, face it, accept it and settle it. Take more challenge same like practice, it will make yours ability level up. My targets wanna earn a lot a lot money, full of knowledge. So start from now, me must always update and improve myself. Be myself full of confident and knowledge. Gal no need love also can happy, this is because of money. Money will no betray you, it will always love, it will stay beside with you forever, it will help you settle problem, and the most important is it will make you happy. That why I like it so much. From my opinion, money is champion. Money is my best friend. Hope Money and me friendship forever. Haha ^^

祝我生日快乐～～

歌曲：祝我生日快乐
演唱：温岚
我知道伤心不能改变什么
那么让我诚实一点
诚实 难免有不能控制的宣泄
只有关上了门不必理谁
一个人坐在空的包厢里面
手机让它休息一夜
那上千个切掉回忆的画面
眼泪不能流过十二点
生日快乐
我对自己说
蜡烛点了
寂寞亮了
生日快乐
泪也融了
我要谢谢你给的你拿走的一切
还爱你的一点恨
还要时间
才能平衡
热恋伤痕
画面重生
祝我生日快乐
一个人坐在空的包厢里面
手机让它休息一夜
那上千个切掉回忆的画面
眼泪不能流过十二点
我对自己说
蜡烛点了
寂寞亮了
生日快乐
泪也融了
我要谢谢你给的你拿走的一切
还爱你的一点恨
还要时间
才能平衡
热恋伤痕
画面重生
祝我生日快乐
还爱你的一点恨
还要时间
才能平衡
热恋伤痕
画面重生
祝我生日快乐

hapPy b'birthday 2 me.........

刘嘉丽，生日快乐。生日又如何？原来我是喜欢一个人庆祝生日，一个人吃蛋糕，一个吹蜡烛，一个人许愿。全部都是一个人。原来一个久了会上瘾的。我也不知何时开始爱上一个的生活？寂寞每一次都会找上我，我想逃避都逃不了。我就是那么爱孤独一个人？孤独我会怕它吗？但是不要在暗暗的地方，我会怕。我现在很清楚自己到底要什么？钱才能满足我，钱能给我想要的东西。怎样才能达到这个梦想？我已二十三岁了，真不敢相信。再过七年，就三十岁了。好可怕的数目字，难以接受。什么都没做到就要死了。我实在浪费太多的时间。读书已用了我一半的人生，接下来的时间就要拼命赚钱，赚钱。我真的能做到像女强人那样，什么东西，感情都不管，眼里心中只有钱钱钱。也许有一天我真的累了，想找一个肩膀靠一靠，休息。有谁会借这个肩膀给我，朋友吗？我看我还是找墙壁靠一靠算了，也许墙壁冷了一点，但至少它不会背叛。一个人久了，慢慢的话也变少了，可怕的是变的不爱讲话了，感情也开始收缩了，心会慢慢的封闭起来，外来发生的事情看的不太重要，眼里只有自己。我会不会变成一个变态的人？一个人爱胡思乱想，就是这样的，真可悲。单纯，天真，简单，在我的字典肯本找不到。我的字典只会找到邪恶，竞争，胜利。嘉丽，祝你生日快乐，愿望实现。Happy Birthday 2 u…………..我谢谢FB那些祝我生日快乐的朋友们，aligator lox....

三年．。。3 years…….

三年的时间说长不长。我就这样糊里糊涂的混过了。我是浪费了我的青春吗？回想起三年前，我第一天到uum的时候，一点兴奋感觉都没有反而觉的是恶梦的开始。当我第一步踏进宿舍的那一刻，一开门我傻了眼，好像难民营。我要在这里生活三年吗？这还没关系，最惨在后面才发生。我被他们折磨了一个星期。但是， 我还是平平安安过了这三年。就快离开森林了，我自由了。就这样结束了读书的生涯。别人问我还要继续深造吗？ 我说我不要了，想到读书都想呕。我已经花了一半的人生读书了。不想再浪费时间，是时候赚钱了。发展我的事业。当想到快要毕业的时候，我会感觉到害怕。因为不懂要往那一条路走，很惶然。对未来很没把握。我真的很怀念以前那样，过废废的生活，无忧无虑。可是岁月果然不饶人，还是要面对残酷的事实。人越长大，烦恼越多。可能懂的事情越多，才会有这样。我们根本逃不过这个必经的路。一切顺其自然吧！我只能说积极面对前方的一切吧！把自己的生活过的充实点。Uum再见了。猴子猴孙再见了。我的朋友们，有缘再相会咯！在那里一切的酸，甜，苦，辣，都变成回忆。我也很谢谢他们，让我知道所谓的“好朋友”。再见了。老孙出山了，我自由了。哈哈！！

♪ ♫ ♪ ♫ 爱上音乐 do re mi fa so ♪ ♫ ♪ ♫

有没听说过音乐可以治百病。很神奇咯！每当听到音乐的旋律的时候，就会很兴奋。一旦播到很熟悉的，经典的歌曲，就会跟着一起哼。好奇怪，歌词可以记得，但为什么书里的字就不行？我最近还去学吉他，那么老了才开始学，会不会太迟了。可是我很喜欢听吉他的旋律，感觉到很奇妙。几条线就能拼出优美的旋律。尤其是听到ronan keating 【when u say nothing at all】，好浪漫。到了几时我才可以弹会一首完整的歌曲。好期待咯！所以我要很认真的，很用功的练习。就当做给自己一个目标。机会来了，就要把握。希望我不会半途而废。我不祈求可以上台表演，我只是想有空的时候弹吉他，当作是一个消遣，减压。至少我年轻的时候，学会了一个乐器，也不错呀！青春不要流白。珍惜时间，喜欢就说，敢敢去做【dare 2 young, young 2 dare】。因为生命没有take 2。年轻曾经疯狂过。有个没好的回忆。爱上你【音乐】，我觉不后悔。我想背着吉他，浪迹天涯。做梦！我只能唱歌给你听，这应该还能办到。哈哈！！！！♪ ♫ ♪ ♫ ♪ ♫ ♪ ♫ ♪ ♫ ♪ ♫ da... da... da ..la....la...la.....tu...tu...tu....tu...sha...sha....la..la...

不知所措 （迷迷糊糊）

不知不觉，在这里也快三年了。 时间真的过的好快，我还真的以为在做梦。过了三年废废的生活，还真没意义。拿到自己不爱的课系，还要死撑到最后。什么都没学到，我真的好失败。能不能回到过去，给回我三年的时间。让我从新的选择，我觉不会选来到这里。别人也许很爱这里，因为有美好的回忆。找到真心的好朋友，轰轰烈烈的爱情，自信的自己。而我，真的是普普通通的过。在这里，我什么都不是。但是唯一我感到骄傲的认识了你们。在你们面前，我不需要带上面具，假假的。我真的很慌，不知道要走那一条路，要向前冲，转左，转右。前途一切迷糊。原来最可悲的事情是，连自己不懂要什么，要做什么，喜欢什么？怎么办？？真的很难接受自己是个没用的人。怎样提升自己的表现？做个自信女人，充满智慧，有思想的女人。什么事情都敢敢来，虽然可能会碰到很多钉子，但是至少试过，没遗憾。人就要活的精精彩彩，才有意义。现在学的就是脸皮要够厚。不怕别人笑你。哈哈哈哈。